Do you ever have the wiggles inside? Those moments when your body wants to internally fight itself and anything that you try to do. I am struggling with those wiggles today. My brain is all over the place. I need to focus so that I can study, write or read, but it is having none of it. It is thinking about the many other things I need to do in the house, planning for the upcoming weekend trip, or it just doesn’t want to think at all. So much so, that I will be surprised if I even finish and submit this blog.

I occasionally get these wiggles and they make me feel like a toddler throwing a fit. We have all seen or heard them. The toddlers that get so upset that they just lie on the floor crying while flailing their arms and kicking their feet. May God bless those parents that can stay calm and handle the situation without creating an even bigger scene. As a mother of two, I have dealt with my fair share of those fits and sadly I was not always the calm mom. Well, today I feel like one of those toddlers. My insides are kicking and screaming but it can’t seem to decide what it really wants. I am just out of sorts. Thankfully, God is a more patient parent than I.

What to do when you are out of sorts? I have read the bible, prayed (and continue to do so), managed to side track myself long enough to clean up the kitchen and throw rugs in the washer, but there is still the feeling of a toddler throwing a fit internally. I am reminded of Paul from the bible in Romans 7:15 “For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” I don’t want to feel this unsettled but I do anyways. So, I will continue to pray and push myself through the day. I may only read or write in 10 minute increments, but 10 minutes is better than none. I just need to remind myself to allow God the full control, because I know he has already won the war. My wiggles are just a minor skirmish.

Have a blessed day,
Kathryn